Modern melbourne

Spent weekend in Melbourne with the family.

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Southbank Aria apartments were very modern and comfortable,  close to the Yarra river and 2km walk to hub of the city.

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Melbourne southbank view of the city at night. Dinner at TGI Fridays was delicious and fun with a few cocktails.

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Beautiful old buildings in contrast with the new versions of urban sights.

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Saturday view of the city from Rod laver arena before Ed Sheeran!

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Ed was amazing and such a born entertainer especially between songs, compared to other artists ive seen he was phenomenal.

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Dawn- early sunday rise for early flight back to Sydney

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Jetstar flight was fast and comfortable landing made at 10:40am.

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Stopped at Katoomba on drive back to see the Three sisters.

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Over the edge !

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Family.

Thanks,
Girl back at home

Hear me- I cried wolf.

Help me, I feel stuck, and feel left behind. I look around me and everyone is too pleasant to disturb. I cant ask for help but I need it. I dont know how to help myself nor do others know. The fact of having someone care and know you need it helps in itself. You feel like someone, anybody. Where is my last life I lived? The one where I was happy and enjoyed everything in my day, even times where I am alone. Now I cant stand to be alone…yet I put myself here in the fear of ruining someone elses happiness. Wishing I had someone that could read me like you used to. A radar that goes off when I am in need without me having to try push the button. The guilt I hold inside as I send the siren off…little do you all know. I hear too many people say they dont know what to say to me. When I practically tell them the answer in my blab. Letting yourself get the best of you really is a game changer. You second guess everything you desire, love and want. Your future seems miles away and sometimes time feels like your worst enemy. You wish humans hibernate just to reach the day you will feel yourself again. Why cant I just enjoy life as it is now?

Sincerely
Girl who cried wolf

Vacation fitness

Hello fellow bloggers I thought it was time I posted my first fitness post. This first one comes to you as I am away at my grandparents down south. The weather has been overcast and not very pleasant but has also blessed us with perfect temperature to work out in. Its a Sunday morning which for many is a rest day but for me it will eventually be soccer season therefore its game day. As I went to sleep last night I promised myself I would get up and start the day correctly, which is get the exercising done.

This post is to also show you that no matter where you are or how ever little equipment you have, it does not limit a good workout.

Equipment: Resistance Bike Space Towel Myself

Time: 25-30 minutes

Warm up – Resistance bike – 5 minutes

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Intervals 1:1 (30 seconds High intensity: 30 seconds rest/low intensity)

Modified plank – 10x get ups each arm then swap

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Squat to lunge – one squat followed by a lunge each leg 10x

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Superman plank – 10x hold for 5 seconds each

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Wall sit – 1 minute

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Russian twists – 45 seconds

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Burpees – 10x

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Repeat all

As you can see its not about fancy equipment or clothes for that matter. I am a qualified personal trainer and have worked in the female fitness industry for 3 years. I have seen and heard many pre- conceptual ideas of what is healthy so I will share my thoughts. Healthy should be defined by each individual as we are all unique, for instance, I will take myself for example.

Personal profile
Weight: 55.4kg
Height: 1.67cm
calorie intake: I don’t count Supplements: None Diet: balanced diet Age: 22
Sports: Softball, touch football, soccer
Medical: Mild exercise induced asthma, peanut allergy
Physical medical history: cortisone interjected R ankle (2011 & 2013), anterior pelvis tilt, high arches, lordosis (therefore weak core), slight kyphosis (poor posture and shoulders).

All these attributes do not make me a perfect person but I have taken steps to be the best I can be and manage with what I have. Physically I am fit and working towards strengthening my weaknesses and imbalances. I am not blessed with tall long-legs like many fitness females are. I do not have a thigh gap, my thighs touch and are strong for what they are used for- jumping, kicking and sprinting. I am happy with my figure as I have grown into a young woman. I used to have skinny legs and a small petite figure up until age 14 when my hips changed and I developed more muscle and ultimately that is where my fat is stored on my body- butt and thighs. I have always had a nice torso but I also have a weak core, it may look strong but it is just aesthetics at the moment. I have small arms but I believe they are stronger then they look.

I am making the best version of me. So don’t beat yourself up by stalking and wishing you looked like Sheridan Fisher or a Victoria Secret model. Get off instagram pages that make you long to look like someone else. We are all guilty of feeling this way and longing to know what its like to look exactly like that person. Look at photos of you and smile at a time you felt and enjoyed yourself and promise yourself you will get back to the healthy glow. If you need that helping hand sit down and write a list of the things you are unhappy about, for example, I wish I could have better toned definition in my quadricep muscles. I know this will take many months of weights and determination to get anywhere near the goal I have set myself.

So go out there and be the woman or man you want to be not because someone told you too….because you WANT TO BE!!

Get up and get out of your comfort zone.

Sincerely,
Girl with no thigh gap 🙂

The daily mask

The mask. You know,  the one you put on everyday you wake up. You lie in bed for that extra hour staring at the ceiling or the glimpse of sun streaming through the curtains. Wishing,  hoping for a better mood or another sunset instead of sunrise. You sluggishly crawl out of bed and make your usual breakfast which used to get you going for the day. Now is just a necessity for living and part of a routine. Still choking behind a mask which hides the cry for help underneath.

Your dressed and managed to make work in one piece. The nerves and sick stomach feeling stay for majority of your day.  You feel on edge more than ever before and try to tolerate strangers whom irritate you in slightest ways.

Job well done you have finished work and the mask has lasted another day for now. You feel satisfied so you let your guard down for the end of the day. However you did not see the tide coming with the sunset. The hours spent alone give you too much time to contemplate. Your mind can be a dangerous place to wonder for too long. What were you thinking you were going to do? Relax?
Of course not!

You cant be content for long you have to feel overwhelmed and alone before the days through. Lets just add in a few bouts of dizziness with that lack of breathing between scrunched tearful tissues. The mask is transparent and does not last 24hours in your world. Behind closed doors you feel safe to let go and show how you really feel inside through river worth of tears. You start to question how much is it possible for one person to cry so much? Where does all this salty tasting water come from?
Should I call for help? Why can’t I just magically have someone here instead of asking?    
Why cant I run away and enjoy life with no one to spoil my mood and keep busy in my own way. A retreat to a peaceful place to do yoga, meditate and bush walk to smell fresh air away from here. Away from people that make me nervous, confused, and wishing to have a life like theirs.
I know my bump in the road is very small compared to most they feel their road is divided and completely hanging in the balance.  I am blessed to have support around me and understanding my temperament at this time in my life. I am grateful for that.

I wish someone had answers for me or an antidote for sadness and confusion.

So please if you know someone is having a hard time or struggling emotionally and mentally please dont Say you understand unless you completely do…or say its all going to be alright- because we wont believe you at the time…or say itll be over soon…or whats wrong? Because if we knew ourselves we would have dam well done it by now to fix things. Unfortunately some of us are stuck in a hole whilst others around us live freely in the sun. Be weary of the ones around you and just be ready to listen. Yes you may not hold the answers we want to hear most but certainly don’t try make sense of our world..its far to warped for a normal mind to comprehend.              

With compliments in advance,

Girl behind the mask

To Transform or not to Transform

Truly touching and honest words on a topic which is hard to do so. Will read over when I find myself in times of doubt of change. Great piece by The Ziet.

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Orange Caterpillar Are you afraid of transforming into a better you ? Image by Twobee

The Monarch caterpillar has no choice.  From the time it emerges out into the world to become an eating machine, it has but one destiny: it will transform into a Monarch Butterfly.  It is a necessary part of its life cycle. It begins life in one form and will end it in an entirely different form. We consider this transformation to be an amazing feat of nature, and yet in viewing it with such awe, we forget that we ourselves often transform in even more dramatic and powerful ways.

There is a crucial difference though: We have a choice: To transform or not to transform?

I work with people who want something better for themselves, for their lives. They are not happy with where they are, and they desire to move into a place that they believe…

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Travel makes the mind wonder

All of us experience the thrill and excitement in the lead up to holidays or going new places. The Great Escape can either be planned months in advance or a spontaneous get away. From both experiences either method is very therapeutic and you find yourself again-refreshed. Then it is time to go back to reality which if your anything like me,  feels like it comes to soon,  and your holidays in a flash are gone.

You return from your break and start work to discover you left your heart in holiday mode. You long for the next escape and try to find a way to it sooner rather than later. What’s stopping me from traveling the world?  … Money!

They say money doesn’t but happiness,  well it certainly does buy experiences that make you content and wiser. Travel is one of those experiences you need money for.  Flights are not getting any cheaper these days.  If your Australian it’s a struggle to fly anywhere thats remotely ancient or culturally rich.

We live in a beautiful country but being far away has its pros and cons.  One of those cons is airfare to anywhere.  Many may read and think what are you thinking,  airfare is inexpensive. I have news for you in my world and my current post-University state is a whole month woth of saving away in a casual job just to FLY! 

I cant afford to visit the other side of the world to see and support my other half due to the expensive exchange rate to pounds for our dollar let alone the flight to get there.

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Its hard to wait 6 months. We are half way now and its exhausting some days are so hard to not have my bestfriend here to talk to. Skype is a great way to stay connected but its been hard to use it as you just miss the person on the other end so much.

My official countdown is on its 94 days today many might look at that and say thats not long.  In my eyes and in my life at this time its a challenge its hard, I try my best everyday to be busy and just get through. No one understands how hard it is.

I’ve gone slightly afar from my point today but it is the travel bug that I have and it cannot be fuelled without money.

Living beautifully and fully..how do we do that?

What truly makes us happy and complete? Many search their whole lives to feel this euphoria of being settled, and content with all aspects of life. For many of us we thought we found it at some point and in the balance we lost it. This time between happiness is a blur and sometimes may seem forever and dark. Its cruel to treat yourself as a stranger and feel empty…Emptiness is neither fun nor sad to feel, your just stuck in space. This space is your galaxy and what you explore and venture to is completely up to you. Yes, you may feel like your an abandoned astronaut stuck without your craft. You may feel like this astronaut in times of trouble and you have lost your way.

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These times of overwhelming isolation overtakes all your feelings, cares, motivation and completely changes your perception on life itself. Depression and anxiety is exactly this.

You may question where did it start to go sour? Why me? Why cant I be ‘normal’ again.

You. Are. Not. Alone.

Its difficult for many to ask for help or let your guard down for anyone to realise something is not right. This is an opportunity for getting a step ahead of your black holes in the galaxy, and reach the stars for help. These stars may not know what to say or do to make you feel better but the relief of the pent up thoughts and emotions may help you breathe.

Many people find a way of letting go of stress and anxiety through various methods; eating, exercising, writing, listening to music, shopping etc. However a small feeling of greatness comes through not just helping yourself but others. What feelings do you get once you helped someone who really needed it, or going that extra mile to put a smile on someone’s face. The trick n peoples lives is most of us don’t stop to think twice about what a person may be dealing with in their lives behind their smile. I would like to show you an excerpt from a great book in regards to this message:

‘With the warrior commitment we gradually become a vehicle for connecting others with their unfettered mind, with their intrinsic goodness, so that they, too, can begin to embrace the groundlessness of being human as a source of inspiration and joy. Our wish for all beings, including ourselves, is to live fearlessly with uncertainty and change. The compassion and kindness required for this are limitless, but we start with whatever we have right now and build on that.’

Chodren, P, (2012). Living Beautifully with Uncertainty and Change. 1st ed. USA: Shambhala Publications inc.

In an overview, I guess my message would be to treat all with kindness. Make a goal for each day, for instance, I would aim to make everyone smile and happy with my friendly demeanour at work and ultimately receive praise for making someone’s day. Yes it has worked many times. However there have been many days that I was ‘not ok’ felt like that astronaut in space whilst on my way to work and had to force a smile. These days do occur but when your in this environment you have to stick it out and it is no excuse to take it out on those who do not know how your feeling. Take a step back and breathe and focus on just getting through those hours. Yes, your body and mind will not agree and its ok to have some days off to recover. Life is still here the next day and you cant run every time, unfortunately, we all go through pain. Life is a test, for you and me to conquer in our own ways. Many believe our paths our chosen for us, personally I believe we are guided and ultimately we choose our own way. Its our attitude that helps us or deters us from decisions and opportunities, either way everything happens for a reason. Why cant you be the reason to change your life?

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Many people you will meet have either battled with depression or will in some stage of their life. Its a scary prospect the alarming numbers of people facing difficulty in this world we live in. Be mindful of others and be someone’s reason to smile and live fully. If you cant then I only ask that you be the reason for your own happiness, find whatever will help you cope (in a healthy way). My new found helping form of medication is writing my feelings. Hence this blog. I hope I have shone some light onto a topic that is very much a grey matter in our lives. Depression and anxiety awareness is rising although there are still many people who are not supported or feel trapped by their circumstances with fear for asking for help. Together we can help others and ourselves by making this area turn into a widely open discussion.

There are many helplines and websites to help you in the right direction to a willing listener for your health. Below is a few links to different organisations (not all):

http://www.beyondblue.org.au/

https://www.lifeline.org.au/

http://www.headspace.org.au/

Thank you,

Girl lost in space

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